I am kinda sad, devastated a bit. Why just a little? I should be a whole lot more sad and crushed. But I’m not so much, or as much as I should be. I would just say, “maybe it just hasn’t hit me yet” but I don’t think that’s it. I don’t think it’ll hit me anymore than it is already. I think I just don’t care enough because I hate this and I hate that place and I hate what I’m doing and..

I just hate how I’m failing everyone.
More than I’m failing myself?