Omg being here is so weird and awkward. I’m scared and nervous omg wtf I shouldn’t even be doing this, then I wouldn’t even be here.
What the fuck.
This is why I’m doing what I’m doing.
But it was only a few days ago when I was thinking about it and I was sad, I felt bad that I was doing it. That I had succumbed to it.
But yet here I am right now telling myself this is exactly why I’m doing it.
I do it but I feel bad about it. But I continue to do so. Because I’m so messed up.
Because I’ve got problems on top of problems.
I just saw this old man and he reminded me of grandpa and I started to cry.
It’s been two months.
The more I tell people what I’m doing, what my presentations are on, the more I feel…I don’t know something. As if I’m actually doing something; I’m really not.
But for real what even? Mice as model organisms to study Alzheimer’s Disease in humans.
Alternative blood tests in forensics, I’m good on that though.
I need to get my shit together cause I’ve been fucking around for the past two weeks.
Omg. About to go into pre-trial conference for my mock trial in about an hour and a half. So not prepared.
And I’m dressed quite casually because I hate dressing up.
Yay me :|
OMGGG. I’m geeking out here. HDL is here and I’ve been waiting for this day. Omg. I love HDL. I want to work there.