January 2012
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i'm poor
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Man, I can’t sleep.
I feel I’m back too soon, too early, both unofficially and officially.
I don’t know why. I haven’t felt like this in like two years, but not as bad.
Within a couple of days it’ll go away, yeah?
Orange and Blue
is a pretty combination.
I've been reading some old shit
and I love it.
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I'd totally walk around in my undies.
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Used to be I’d have trouble falling asleep. Now I can’t even stay awake.
disorders.disability.
December 2011
11 posts
something's wrong.
something is always wrong.
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I want to take pictures and make cookies.
and I did
I am kinda sad, devastated a bit. Why just a little? I should be a whole lot more sad and crushed. But I’m not so much, or as much as I should be. I would just say, “maybe it just hasn’t hit me yet” but I don’t think that’s it. I don’t think it’ll hit me anymore than it is already. I think I just don’t care enough because I hate this and I hate...
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Bedhead - More Than Ever
I’ve been debating: should I go to sleep or not. I’m not even tired. I haven’t slept or taken a shower in almost a day. I even debated whether or not I should shower. Course it isn’t uncommon to find people who haven’t showered. Some’ll even say they haven’t showered in days. Me? Every other day. Can’t go longer without.
But I’ve decided...
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I just tell myself, you’ll sleep when you get home Friday, Saturday. The weekend.
So I was walking back home at one in the morning and I saw, well, I heard a thump and looked up and this guy was limping and holding his hand on his leg right in front of this car’s front bumper and I heard a “I don’t care”. At first I thought the two knew each other and the guy limping was faking since I didn’t actually see what happened until what happened next; the...
I get back and I’m brushing my teeth and in the midst of brushing my teeth I hear my suitemate’s alarm go off. I just got back home and he’s waking up from his slumber.
Also, I’m hungry but it’s 6:50 am and I’ve officially been up for a full 24 hours. But I’m going to bed now! Back up in about 3 hours!
It is almost 4:30 in the morning and I’m starting to get real tired.
I’ve been up since 6:50 am yesterday.
I’ve been told I look tired. Like, twice.
So I had to go and check myself out and shit. If you think I look bad when I get sleep. Fucking see me now.
Tore up broke down beat up trash.
November 2011
9 posts
I don’t know what it is but lately people are beginning to look like people I know/knew.
And it is really weird.
Saw my brother today :)
I got back in the area last night, slept at Alexandria for the night. Got back home around 5 today. Went and got a haircut around 6:30. Asked my brother when he’ll be home tomorrow. He said he doesn’t know and asked if I am back. I said yes, but I’m getting my haircut now. 10 minutes later while I’m sitting on the chair getting my haircut I see...
I’m horrible in math. So then, what am I doing?
Why.
Sometimes when I’m talking to my mother I wonder if I should tell her. Maybe I should, maybe I shouldn’t, maybe I should pretend that I don’t even know.
She talks to me about my brother and she says stuff like he took some of his clothes and shoes and bed sheets and towels and she hasn’t seen him in weeks. She says she wonders where he is staying.
I know.
But I...
It has become very evident to me that this is a place where I should not be in. This institution has screwed me over too many times. And for any thought of staying here for another two-four years after is now gone. The day I leave this place will be a day where I will probably be the most happiest in a long time.
Slept for 12 hours. Went to the gym. Ate at a buffet.
Saturday.
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My advisor keeps avoiding me it seems. It’s like he doesn’t want to see/meet me.
I’m so tired at the worst times.
Focusing is so hard.
Cigarettes.
October 2011
14 posts
Hey. You ever wake up from sleep in the morning and find yourself with strange scratches on your body, neck, or face?
Yeah. Like more often than should.
I've got Crunch, cookies, and Nutella.
I guess it hasn’t hit me yet but I should be really upset. This is fucking bullshit. I I guess subconsciously I knew this was gonna happen. I knew I was ill prepared but shit. This is the worse. I don’t think this has ever happened before.
OhMyGod help me. Including today it’s been five days and I still can’t do this.
How the fuck?
It’s like all you have to do is put on some desert boots, chinos, a plaid/flannel shirt, and thick black rimmed (sun)glasses, preferably Ray-Ban, and you’re in the running of best dressed over here.
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Happy Happy Birthday Kodiebearr :D ! Have some delicious cuppycakezz ;)
One afternoon I was walking down the boardwalk and I saw a mouse like creature lying on the floor. Someone said one of his legs was broken and that’s why he wasn’t moving. I was so sadden, just lying there with a future certain of death.
One morning as I was leaving and walking down the staircase I saw a guy peeing in the corner at the bottom of the stairwell.
One night I was walking back home and I saw the moon and I said, I wanna go to the moon.
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Things I like #11
Brown shoes.
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Sometimes, looking like a mess is just what I’m best at.
I don’t know if it’s because of the medicine I took or it’s just my nightly, which hasn’t become nightly anymore actually, brain going off and talking/thinking but I really want it to stop.
September 2011
15 posts
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How can people be so interesting?
Donate blood. -> Get free food. -> Dinner.
Hate being poor.